Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Just when you think you have reached rock bottom!!!!
SOOOO got a call today around noon - it was E's middle man wanting to set up a meet w/boys this Saturday... I was busy so mom took a message and I called back a bit later and left a message to call me... They call back later and E gets on phone w/mom - E wants to talk to me but he can't even email me at this point... Tells mom he doesn't want to see the boys and will talk to me in court... WTF???? I don't understand what's going on and what pisses me off more is that my mom is getting involved so I am getting info 2nd hand - mom is not always the most reliable to pass on info but I am not supposed to know he called and talked to her..... Add to that she already makes the occassional snippy comment about E that pisses me off cause I am trying NOT to do that for the sake of the boys...
Then - not a FUCKING clue where it came from tonight but mom starts yelling at me and attacking my parenting skills so we end up arguing and now mom tells me she is NOT coming back to watch the boys after I take her home Sunday.... WTF is that??? How am I supposed to work if she's not gonna help me out... I am totally clueless what the fuck went wrong with mom that she's in such a pissy mood suddenly... Just the stress I needed on top of everything else... She says she will help me pay for someone to come watch the boys every other week which is just great but where do I find someone to do that??? ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Well perhaps it is for the better... I wasn't overly happy with the way she was handling the boys and parenting over me anyway.... But man it sure puts me in a pickle w/working nights.... I am soo aggrevated right now I just wanna cry and hide away in my bed forever....
Then poor Deven is apparently cycling thru a manic upswing as he was still up at 12 when I left for work and I can only PRAY he went to sleep like I told him to.... And Dilen is coughing and snoring from congestion in his sleep and Deven is starting to run warm and tells me his ears hurt - he even went to the nurse at school.... when it rains it pours.... and pours and pours and pours - gee did hurricane season start already?? I just can't win - hell I can't even break even at this point in my life.... Well I need to get a little rest.... Til next time....
SOOOO got a call today around noon - it was E's middle man wanting to set up a meet w/boys this Saturday... I was busy so mom took a message and I called back a bit later and left a message to call me... They call back later and E gets on phone w/mom - E wants to talk to me but he can't even email me at this point... Tells mom he doesn't want to see the boys and will talk to me in court... WTF???? I don't understand what's going on and what pisses me off more is that my mom is getting involved so I am getting info 2nd hand - mom is not always the most reliable to pass on info but I am not supposed to know he called and talked to her..... Add to that she already makes the occassional snippy comment about E that pisses me off cause I am trying NOT to do that for the sake of the boys...
Then - not a FUCKING clue where it came from tonight but mom starts yelling at me and attacking my parenting skills so we end up arguing and now mom tells me she is NOT coming back to watch the boys after I take her home Sunday.... WTF is that??? How am I supposed to work if she's not gonna help me out... I am totally clueless what the fuck went wrong with mom that she's in such a pissy mood suddenly... Just the stress I needed on top of everything else... She says she will help me pay for someone to come watch the boys every other week which is just great but where do I find someone to do that??? ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Well perhaps it is for the better... I wasn't overly happy with the way she was handling the boys and parenting over me anyway.... But man it sure puts me in a pickle w/working nights.... I am soo aggrevated right now I just wanna cry and hide away in my bed forever....
Then poor Deven is apparently cycling thru a manic upswing as he was still up at 12 when I left for work and I can only PRAY he went to sleep like I told him to.... And Dilen is coughing and snoring from congestion in his sleep and Deven is starting to run warm and tells me his ears hurt - he even went to the nurse at school.... when it rains it pours.... and pours and pours and pours - gee did hurricane season start already?? I just can't win - hell I can't even break even at this point in my life.... Well I need to get a little rest.... Til next time....
